state of mind

oh. hello there 2010. how are you?
I'm quite positive thank you very much.

Maybe there's a point we get to, where we are just tired of freaking out. And so we decide, and we just stop.

And when you keep thinking I'm doing everything I should, why isn't this working.
Take a step back. Keep giving it the time. Stop judging yourself. Spend time with good people that make you feel good. Feel comfortable. Sleep. Eat ice cream. Go to Vegas.
You'll see. It's worked. It's been working. And it'll keep working.

I usually try to avoid thinking about new years. What - just because it's January you get to, or have to, start over? What if I'm not ready. Well, this time, it was kind of a push I needed that I didn't know I needed. And thank god. I'm thankful that it involved my two sisters and college roommates. The two people that will always make sense, and never fail a laugh or fun time. They will a.l.w.a.y.s. be just what I need. My sisters.

Tomorrow I adventure. I'm going to Washington DC to visit a dear friend and explore the city. Perhaps a test - to see if I can really do this in the near future.
I. am. so. excited.
Have you ever had that feeling? I'm about to fall in love.
I am in love with hope.