something about trusting the process

For the past for years trust the process has been a moto of mine.
So last fall I put myself out there. Applying to jobs and schools to give myself options. I'd go day to day back and forth not knowing which option I wanted, actually wanted. I didn't know what I wanted or what was right. At that point, I was hoping things would just fall into place, and I was trusting that the answer will fall into my lap and the decision will be made for me.

Well now I'm there. And it feels a bit uneasy.
Perhaps the answer that fell into my lap didn't look the way I thought it would.
But. This is what I asked for. I planned on trusting the process and going with whatever option fell into place. And now here I am. not trusting the process.
What's wrong with me!? Why can't I accept this? Why can't I continue to trust the process? I want to so bad, but it just feels off. And it's uncomfortable and it's frustrating.
I'm going to try though. If that's enough. This is what fell into place. It'll be right. I'll make it right. This is where the process led.